“Some nights I miss you so much it hurts and some nights I forget that you ever existed. And I’m not sure which one is worse.”
Message me your biggest fear.
“I still remember the first time we kissed. We were laying in your bed, talking about who knows what. All of a sudden our lips met and that is something that has changed my life forever. After that moment nothing was ever the same and it’s funny because never in a million years did I think that was going to happen and never in a million years did I see coming everything that followed. You never really know how important a small moment like that can be until it happens. But I don’t regret it. Because regret is like the ocean, it can drown you and you can’t always get back to the safety of the shore.”
“I look at the boy in front of me and he looks away. I ask him if he’s okay and he says yes nervously, and he looks away again. I see his mind racing a mile a minute and I see the conflict in him. He talks with confidence in his beliefs but the longer he talks the more he sounds uncertain. He comes back from bible study and thinks he’s found himself but I can see in his eyes that he’s just as lost and confused as the rest of us. I look at the boy I love and can’t help but to feel bad for him because he’s just a lost boy trying to convince himself otherwise.”
When did you start writing poems?
A couple years ago, and then I started posting them on this account less than a year ago I believe.
As much as I act like I’m not, I’m so scared. And I think that fear is what scares me most of all.
“Sometimes at night
I’ll be laying in bed and
It’ll just hit me.
Hits me like a ton of bricks
I can’t breathe
And nothing in the world
Feels right anymore.
And then once I cry myself to sleep and wake up the next morning,
I feel like a new person.
And I’m not scared anymore.
I just have to remember to get through the night, because everything seems better in the morning.
I just have to remember that the fear is temporary.”
“I felt in my heart two contradictory feelings: the horror of life and the ecstasy of life.”
— Charles Baudelaire (via expiry
Any suggestions for good sad movies on Netflix? Or movies that just make your heart hurt but are so worth it?